Missing you, you & you...

Thursday evening was better than awesome at huda's for raya.. Priyaa, Huda, Said and some others.... Omg, catching up and crapping was erm, nothing new, but loved it! Priceless laughter from the bottom of our hearts. ;)

On night on friday and saturday.. Friday was fun, with 'code purple' and afew incidents. Saturaday night was a bore. Time passed the slowest! Sleep or don't sleep, same thing. We're praying for BMU to call for lodgers to be admitted. Nothing. I was praying for AP to be violent, nothing. Hoping that Sap will wakeup and have us entertain her, nothing. We ended up refreshing FB every minute and napping on and off... Browed through some pictures and I'm missing BG, steph and nick. I miss those times in NZ when BG was always around. I miss those times during the tour when everything could be just so normal with him, and miss those times when he was over when things were more close to heart. I miss steph and the old times.

Saturday night passed just like that. -.- Didn't get to attend Kana's grand 21st bday party with collegues! And didn't get to party with my girls... But sheila, iqah and liza dropped by for a smoke break with me..

Spent my weekends sleeping in the day and stoning at work at night. Wth. Tonight was dinner at Ikea with the family, then picked my sister up to go A&E. She's fine, in my eyes. Lol. But now I'm pissed cause once again, the 'family game' has started. Fuck.

Anyway, fuck the drama. Here's something to think about... I wokeup this evening to this weirdest dream ever. Both steph and him were involved. Mygod! Torturing to my poor soul. But everything that happened in there were things that I've been thinking about recently and things that I want. Scary shit!

**Ok sheila, I'm confused. ): You find my blog interesting right... Now it's serious, I'm confused.**

I've never knew that Tuesdays can be so happening.

Omg I totally love today. Started off with Homecare-Assist with hajarah, erni and mai... Representing ward14~ (: Made a total of $257! Not bad eh.. Hahaha! Had fun with the girls in the process of making those money!

Met iqah after being those business women we're trying to be, makan-ed at eastpoint, cotton on-ed at tamp, window shopped at tamp and...... Off to ros sheila's house we flew to! Haha.. Slacked, watch tv, laugh, eat... Like pigs sia.

Happily they are there labeling me as confused bitch. Affected please! -.- Then only by end of the night, upgraded to clever bitch. Don't know how it happened actually, but its okay, I take that upgrade! (:

Then came the start of the cheap thrills~ ;) Geylang.
"How to see who is it?"
"Is it this one, is it this one?"
"Ok lets all look out for the dustbin and a man beside it!!!"
"Okok this guy this guy!!"
"Erm, is there anyone like undercover following us behind not?"
HAHAHAHA!!! :D

Next pitstop: My house. Had to re-orientate those 2 creatures to my room in particular. Since they claimed that an earthquake took place in here since the last time they've been inside. ): Sadded. Flaunted my mummy in the coffin, my guzheng! Wahahaha! Had black pepper beef and heineken..... Figured out the drinking game, Beer. DRINK!!! (:

Home sweet home after.

I've never knew that tuesdays can be so happening.......till today.

Friends to run alongside with.

I'm just having my hot coffee in my cold room, browsing through some random pictures on my laptop. Last night and tonight is just so emo please. Hahaha! Old times with friends, overseas trip with family..... Heee (: I love it!

I miss those trips where we'll go with the church, to like Thailand and Myanmar... You'll gget to see so much I promise. The kids just running around and all.. Put aside the works of mission and whatever not, but just the thought of being there, knowing that you're making someone's day and the smiles on their faces. Mygod! Satisfaction+++!

You just have to Move On in Life.

Besides the fact that we're under the same sky and we see the same moon every night, there's nothing much we go through in life that is common eh.. Parcel recieved. Safe-kept it for that few hours before making up my mind that since I've already decided, fuckit, and throw it away. (: Effort appreciated, but no thank you. Many times in life, you just have to move on...

Girls just wanna have FUN.

&we had FUN! (: Last night at Supper was a blast. 48284514. Though it was overwhelming with 48. Hahaha! And it's been a long while since I last came home at 530am after clubbing! Yayy!

"Nurul Huda"

Ohmygod. I see her name everywhere. As I flip open the roster, there she is. As I go to my locker, I see her big fat name again, on a post-it stuck onto her reserved locker 2 lockers away.. Hahahaha! (:

Hearty Nights.

Chat over supper with Hannah after work on sunday was indepth.. Followed by a crazy night out with Sheila and Feeza. All the laughter, visiting night staffs, cig budd-ing outside CGH, racing on the roads at 1am, throwing junk into Feeza's car at traffic lights, monkey see monkey do.... It's been a long time since I last came home at 430am. Lovely! Long chat with Sheila after her shift last night behind court.... Hehh.. Share share about love life and talking about lesbian shows, and defining 'the L word'. Hahaha! Love, lust, lost, lesbians.. And that woman was trying to categorise me somewhere somehow. (:

**Not just any doctor deserve any of our respect. Especially those who don't respect us nurses. Step on me and I'll bite your head off in time to come.**

Unwell.

Chose to be the 'clown' at work today cause I came to a conclusion that the shift won't be able to pass by with 2 staffs of the same team sitting at the counter pulling a face with low mood. Lol! Tiring trying to be all care-free and cheery when you're not at all in the inside. All survived a looong day at work! And love is the huge problem here. Hehh.

"There are different types of kisses. Kisses of passion, kisses of friendship, kisses that don't say anything, kisses that say everything... Maybe that is why a kiss means so much. Cause after you give it, there isn't a need to speak. Everything's already been said."

Nice! I so like this please. Heee(:

Part of me wants him to transit here for at least a day. Though I know that I'm still not yet fully in terms with the whole 'hidden truth', which is the reason why I'm still holding back. Might end up just running away from my fears again soon. Which suck big time. And I totally and fully know that even without this 'love', I'll be able to go on. Cause what that matter most are the friends around me. I mean I survived well enough even before he stepped into my life, no? Hahaha! Ohwell... Maybe you can help sort out my thoughts?

&the world moves on cause they can't see.

Work was enjoyable. Makan and movie with Hannah and Mabel was even more enjoyable! (: Our hangouts are always awesome, no? Hahaha! Going the distance was alright..

Point is, Elhannah Ho Yiting never fails to hit bulls-eye and pick out any of my pretense. Mygod. She's always full on accurate please. Hehh... Scary shit.

"uve learnt to talk things out within urself. i mean, i dontknow hw much hurt there is or like hw much pain u go through. but i donknow. i'd say grown. nt changed."
Hannah said that. I stared at it for a good FIVE minutes and still can't figure it out. LOL!
Not to everyone will my "I'm good/fine/alright" pass off just like that. Haha! Irritating or what.

Aiya, I love my darlings, all of them. That's it.

Beautiful Nightmare.

Awesome day with my darlings yesterday at Clarkequay. All the laughters, catchups, old-time talks, drinks and partying... (: Love how we just go on and on about our sec-sch days and laugh non stop. Hahaha!

Had a quarrel with my aunt at 6am this bloody morning. Then long day at work today.. Junior to HCA to SN work. Hmm... Nice staff I must say, but nothing beats the starbucks hot choc with love from mabel at the start of work~ Starbucks hot choc never ever fail as my comfort drink eh! &most importantly, I have my friends to fall back on anytime baby!

Warmth.

The pricelessness when I got to speak to BG once again on msn... Its like the warmest feel ever. Hahahaha!!! Just like this sunset.. The warmth, the peacefulness.... Wow.

The World through Camera Lens.

This is the world through camera lens. In the state of shock on how so many unfortunate events can happen to NZ one after another. Quake and skydiving plane crash. Woah... So how does the world look like through your eyes? Through mine, it's beautiful. The breath-taking nature and on the other hand, the destuction of it..

Look at the clown fish above, it's staring at you, in your eyes. It's a picture taken by BG while diving. (: Beautiful eh.. Haha! I miss her much. I miss him much. As much as I hate him, I love him. So what do I do? Hehh... I don't have the answer to it anymore.

Sweet As.

New Zealand. Hate how the quakes decided to hit that beautiful place. Will always remember that sucky feeling when Mabel first texted me about the quake when I was at work. Mygod! Not funny at all. But I thank god Auckland's not affected. Though there's still this small tinge of worry cuz BG still hasn't got back to me in any way. Hahaha! And its nice to see friends in NZ starting to post on FB. Good sign! (:

....But the times with you, they were real.

It's just like when he went "I love you but...."

Just these two days or so, there are TWO songs playing in my head on repeat. 'Have you ever' and 'Love the way you lie'... Reason I decided on this is basically I just wanna hold on to whatever that I've always believed. And the reason why I took this long was cause I still love you very much. (: Hanging in there great so far, has been almost a week. Doing good. Hopefully it continues to be good. Hahaha! I'm just gonna do what I like and live life to MY fullest.

Anyway, Feeza's SUPERLICIOUS SUNDAY was a success!!! Mission accomplised, she cried. Stuck to our theme, Stupid Got No Limit. Hahaha! Loved it.

Stepup3 and Grown ups with Jasmine tonight. Was awesome! So need to watch stepup3 again soon mann! The cheap adrenaline pumping thrill, ohgod. Heavenly.